"This too shall pass"

Murder 2 - Phir Mohabbat Karne Chala

2011-09-18T22:04:00.000-07:00

To SRK- with Luv

2011-09-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

SRK is of course ever1's inspiration to feel the phenomenon called Love. I was triggered by Glenn Medeiros but definitely fuelled by Simran & her mischievous lover!!
I spent a life time figuring out ways to reach 'simran' but in-vain. All that i could do (which i still relish) was saying "I liked you a lot but not anymore" and that was my share of srk style chivalry.
Later of course there were dozens of frantic attempts with blends of time tested magic potions n srk-isms. But as wise men have said that its a genuine idea which sees light of the day, i concealed myself in the virtual world and let my words sketch my persona!!!
BINGO... bulls eye!!!
i got myself an audience willing to hear me out. I have always thought that i am the most patient listener but i was beaten this time and it was time for me to learn that with every little dream to be lived comes a responsibility of life n relationship. That human is a social animal and existence in solitude is impossible. That the worst feeling in any1’s life is of being taken for granted. That ‘giving’ is the real pleasure.

I read in a Shakespeare’s play that love asked for and received is great but love received without asking for is most selfless and genuine.
This reminds me of a song “….turn around and I’ll b 2 steps behind” .

I know reading such things sound nice philosophically but believe me it’s a Herculean task for any mortal being and I salute today to the spirit of SRK which lives and nurtures such difficult human emotions.

It takes a lifetime to love some one but it takes just a moment to yield to your ego and loose entire lifetime ofcompanionship!!!!

Changing Season

2011-04-04T03:34:00.000-07:00

"Rolling stones dont gather moss" & the in the event of rolling the stone gets rubbed and chizzled into amazing shape/size. Thats the creativity of Mother Nature, each twist n turn brings some intrinsic change in all of us and if we are careful enuf to retain the learning wisdom isnt far. Its ofcourse easy to write n easier enuf to read and appreciate but the true test of times are when the times are testing. At times i feel that the pace of activities around us change speed so frequently that settling in a certain phase and fighting it out dosnt happn, the waves are strong and wild enuf to throw me away on to the shore even before i get familiar to the phase. Some1 once commented that many of us are like Lord Ganeshji, which ever corner or the house He is established He stays there forever. I guess its very much applicable to me , i have a certain rythm in my day-to-day activities and i just love to play by it. Any thing which has a remote possibility of menacing with that rythm is unwelcome. I am a typical 'Time- Table' kinda guy with least deviation and in retrospect i have been like this since the time I can recollect my childhood. I dunno whether its good or bad or whether it calls for a balancing act. I have mostly lived my life King- Size, something which used to be my signature sign off during graduation days. Later i went through a phase of reality check and then the scepter & crown just tumbled down!! No doubt it was painful but I was glad as I felt going through that metamorphosis process to emerge somewhat mature (at least I think so). Making mistakes are the pathways of learnings, but too many are fatal !! I agree I do repent some mistakes which cannot be camouflaged under the tag of immaturity and wish that I can get a chance to undo them but alas the clock cannot be wound backwards. So the only wise option is to be aware of such situations and never to give in to temptations. It feels good to rant away to glory occasionally!! But its time i end this session here itself before letting my thoughts run wild.

The Price of shaking off a nightmare!!

2010-11-17T03:37:00.000-08:00

It sounds more like a diabolic story right out of a daily soap, but I am actually living it every day.
It was soo disturbing to come to know that one is supposed to pay 2000K to get rid of a nightmare which once appeared like a sweet dream. I wonder wat more is in store and to wat level can a family stoop just to instigate , that too at the cost of their kid's life!! It was terribly disturbing for sometime and i culd barely control my anger, but i gulped it down and braced my self for the worst!!
This one time my only fault was that i just jumped to live my most cherished dream ever!!! I am afraid of dreams now.

Koi Yeh Kaise Bataye ki Woh Tanha Kyon Hai!!!

2010-11-03T17:04:00.000-07:00

A concious decision misfired!!! The date 4-Nov-20xx was twice a witness to wonderful beginings in my life but unforutnately both of them gave me more pain than happiness except on that date itself!!!

All of us have a habit to sacrifice day to day happiness hoping that we will enjoy much more in a big way sum illusive "one-day" in life in different circumstances or with different people!! Alas dat day acts as a carrot and we keep running happily killing our own self. Not that i am any different to what I have written, but it just hurts when i realize that i am still not taking a lesson from my past even though i have an encylopedia full of mistakes from day 1.

I guess i just dont 'want' to grow up, and blame it all on my misfortune or anyone around me!! Though i have absolutely stopped evaluating what/who went wrong 'coz i know in my heart the answers to all such questions.

Life is so very accomodative and adustable that come what may everyone has a chance to begin a new day everyday!!! So i too will begin my new day today 4/11/2010!!

kyon zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye film saath saath

2010-10-30T19:16:00.000-07:00

The Thin Red Line

2010-10-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

Its the thin line between the right & wrong, the good & bad, to do or not to do!!!! But who is to decide n where r the SOP of life written?? I really dont believe dat life can work on the digital science of 1 or 0, would be monotonous and the element of surprise wiould be missing. I have tried imitating that life and the consequence was just ir -repairable losses.
I happened to cross da line for nth time in life probably and its painful to be reprimanded for caring!!

Wat if i die b4 i wake up...??

2010-10-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

Isnt it disturbing to imagine wat will happen tomorrowmorning if i actually nevr wake up again?? wel its sumthng wch no one ever imagine, or wishes to imagine, i read it on sum1's tweet nd was intrigued by the mere thot!!

First thng my mom wud b worried dat i m gettng late to office n will come running to wake me up!!
Nxt my boss wud be lost wid out the monday morning MIS n the ppt he needs urgntly at 9 am sharp!!
Dat wud b two immediate affects wch hit me widout thinking, though casacading effects will b far worse dan imagination!! But wat peace,no monday morning blues!! no more deciding wat combination to wear today n guilt abt un polishd shoes. Bus queues wont exist n no reminders to b feeded in cell phne for buying medicines on way home!!
It wud probably be a "birds eye view" of the world and a smirk across da face fo those killing demselves in da rat race!!!
Wat is it that i will regret...... not owning an i-phone ever, nvr being able to drive my car or may be never being able to see a foreign country except fr Nepal ( dat doesnt count though)!!!
Wat will alwaz haunt me will be not filing my last IT return, not getting the leases renewed fr the flat, not getting the imoprtnt puja done at home, nd yes.. nt getting my clothes frm laundry and lastly not calling da physio ovr da weekend for mom!!
Da list of thngs wch need to be done is longer dan the list for things wch may/may not b done.
So i guess its time i hit da bed nd call it a day!! :-)

"This too shall pass"

2010-09-04T23:55:00.000-07:00

Change is the most consistent characteristic of life!! Dats why every phase of life passes away with time and depening upon the nature leaves behind memories or scars!!

I kind of learnt it the hard way and alwaz took life too seriously making it tough for my ownself and also those around me. I always thought i m very mature and non one knows better than i do. But i was absolutely off the mark and learnt to choose my priorities very late.
Either we can live life as it comes or live life as we want to, but its difficul to decide wat do i actually want???Learn frm the past, enjoy today and look forward to the future.

Life is to short to be sad and unhappy for stupid reasons, yet life span is too large and can accomodate countless mistakes /fresh beginings. But then dat doesnt mean that we keep experimenting throughout the life and never reach a happy conclusion.
We mostly live under a cloud of fear, the outcome of today's action/ decision!! Neither we act nor we decide and end up regretting later. The cloud would alwaz follow us every where and prevent the sunshine in our life, the most impotant but most difficult thing is to stnd up and take matters into our own hands 'coz its our own life.
I have realized concept of happiness is never on sale in malls, nor is it on display at the sea shore. Its within our own self, all it takes is to seek it and nourish it!!

Its very easy to preach and to pen down philosophy, its equally heculean to actually walk-the-talk. But to be truthful, i write such things just to re-inforce the same for my own self and make sure that i am still breathing sumwhre down my skin!!!
Good Days ahead!!!
Cheers!!

Saare Sapne kahi kho gaye!!

2010-08-28T04:21:00.000-07:00

" Saare sapne kahio kho gaye"

But i m glad dat it is over now (hopefully). "Sapne dekho lekin sapne sach hone ki shart mat rakho". I wish had learnt my lesson frm the very first stint but my larger than life dreams just blindfolded me to tie knot to my own doom!!!

It was nasty as long as it lasted. I thnk God thats it is all over n v all r breathing normal now!!!

Marriage definitely is the most beautoiful exprnc in ones life nd i havebeen a mute audience to its horrible state frm the very first day. It was like i was supposed and expected to rjoice and act happy when my soul was bleeding from all pores.

I accept all as an exprnc of life, but do nt regret much- " alls well dat ends well"

New Year: Life's still rolling

2010-01-17T01:35:00.000-08:00

I must admit that Mr. Waangdo made my eyes wet on the first day of the year, that too for 3 hours straight,i cannot say in wat way it is appealing to others but to me it was a re-run of 30 yrs of my life!!!
And a week later i was able to thank God for the opportunity rather than ask Him for success!!! Trust me, it was the first time in the entire life when i felt bold enough to say prayers normally and not shed tears!!!

Goa trip on christmas was good..... thats all i can say about it !!

Things are bright as well as grey, difficult to decide which light to c things in !!

A Short, Sweet and free Trip!!

2009-06-04T06:00:00.000-07:00

It was just one night at stay at di's place but it was none the less quite refreshing. I got to meet my niece and the infant nephew who is just a fornite old and holding him in arms was no doubt a scary thought until di actually put him in my arms and my eyes and throat betrayed me!! I just remembered a friend's advise to always sit on a bed and then hold such an infant for safety but I was standing and was scared a bit!! Raghav was quitely sleeping and the moment he came in my arms he popped open his eyes and I made some silly sound to pacify him, well he gave me the sweetest and naughtiest smile I have ever seen in my life. Twice he smiled or may be I imagined it as a smile when it wa more of anything else. That was a moment of euphoria and like falling in love with God's beauty which is abundant around us only waiting for us. I had to gather the strength of steel to leave Raghav and a wailing Myra for office just return to mumbai in th evening even without dropping in one last time!!!! Its a whole bag of mixed emotions, and they stir up just too much sometimes,speculations about my own future family,responsibilities combined with joys of family. I have nutured so many tons of dreams since i stepped into boy hood about a family life that living all of them in just "one" single life seems impossible!!

The Ides of May-decideth for All

2009-05-16T19:13:00.000-07:00

"Day of Decisions -for Life"
Months of country wide political and family wide domestic dillema finally took face on 16th May!!
One of the largest democracies stepped forward and joined hands to take a unanimous decision for their own future which is a refreshing change in my coutrymate's philosophy!!! my own life took a giant leap and i crossed the threshold of maturity entering the phase of man-hood from boy-hood!!At the end of the day rejoices & colors marked the sunset with a loud promise of a happy sunrise!! All went to bed with content in their heart thanking all for the best alliance!! Let us all pray to God to give us the courage and wisdom to stand up to our vows which we solemnly take today for a brighter & happier tomorrow!!! Jai Ho!!

The fragrance of Heena & Turmeric!!

2009-05-07T05:46:00.000-07:00

I made the worst appearence on the most important interview of my life!!but my own philosophy about looks was endorsed by sumone else too which was a pleasent surprise and changed our lives for ever!!!! i had butterflies in my stomach and they became dinosaurs when i got to know dat i was up for the interview right after office which left me no time for preparations or make-up!! I wore clothes which I just intended to dump in the laundry bag since it was a "TGIF" mood!! I dunno y I had shaved dat day. But chalo simplicity worked!! i bought that shirt in dun to appear for my campus,but even then i had not got a chance to prepare n wear it n in a jiffy i was swept away by honeywell.This time I wore this shirt by chance n the trouser was also old one from dun days!!!Though the whole office forced me to go home change n then meet "them" but I decided to be natural n spontaneous rather than do a marathon!! my colleagues sprinkled all funny stuff on me n i had to borrow a comb!!! to b exact i was sweaty smelly, full of dust n tired too. but"wohi hota hai jo manzure khuda hota hai"!!so it clicked!!nd i returned home with a broad grin to share the sweets n news with my friends.it was difficult to shut eyes dat nite n i ended up sleepless till morning!! nd then i had a lunch to catch, i was wondering now my eyes will b red n swollen, so those were my 2 worst appearences on 2 most important days but it was all so well managed dat i was comfortable through out!! Its like God answered all my unasked queries in a smooth shot.I m stil keeping my fingers crossed afraid to wake up in the morning n think about every thing, i still savour the dream n want to live it all my life.

bread or butter?

2009-03-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

My return journey to Mumbai was quite comfortable and uneventful but there was a surprising incident. I ordered a dinner plate from which i only ate some dal-rice, i went in search of someone to whom i cud give the rest of it, as i cudnt imagine throwing away food. I crossed over to the sleeper compartment and luckily found a very old begger who i felt was the most suitable candidate. I offered him the plate and expected his face to glow up with gratitude.... BUT!!! He gave me quite a dismayed look and gently declined to oblige me !! I could feel every ones eyes burning hole through me i left in a hurry!!!

Dilli ki sardi- not my cup of tea!!!

2009-02-28T10:21:00.000-08:00

i really want to scream out my thoughts and cry my heart out!!! but social constraints do not permit me for the same..... landing in delhi was realy smooth considering it was a go air!! but wat followed wasnt nice rather shocking!! i desperately need some to talk to and cry out my tears, der is soooooooooooooo much welled up inside that its becoming painful each day to carry the weight around with sweet smile!! i felt my legs become rubber when dad broke down in tears like a kid and i was forced to hold back mine because at this moment i have to be as strong i can. then the news of theft at home in allahabad and the insecurity which has crept in the minds of papa and ma!! then di is expecting and we are unable to pamper her with the love and care which she deserves and needs at this hour!! i so feel guilty for all and the worst is that no one will ever blame me or anyone for anything but it kills to dream of ur father weeping every night and wake up with a smile as if nothing happened!!!

The Taste of Success & Power of Confidence

2009-02-14T01:52:00.000-08:00

The Title does sound like another book on the shelf of Crossword gathering dust. I would say that such proudy sounding title is sumthing which i always refrain to use always, it just doesnt suite my persona!! All those who have been near to me know me as a shy, soft spoken and probably timid kind of person. I was never short of self esteem but yes i always fell short of self appreciation and confidence. But in the past few months with my new work environ ment and profile, I know I have been able to over come most of my deep rooted fears and complexes!! Its great working in my present organization, I mean here I can sweat it outevery day for hours together and return home to sleep peacefully with a satisfaction of adding my bit of value to the business. I craved for something similar previosuly too but in-vain. The reason I enjoyed my work at my first job at the call center was that at the end of every day i could see a tangible bit of work which i had done and small achievements during the 9 hours . This quantifiable way of work evaluation worked wonders for my morale boosting.

Ok, thats enuf of bragging about senti-senti stuff, lets write something more interesting and tangible to read about.

Yesterday i was in another townfor some work assigned to me. The concerned officers were not available and in normal circumstances, I would have checked in to the hotel and gone to sleep gladly. But I took an initiative and pursued my own porfolio of interests which actually took me all over the place in the organization and i met atleast a dozen of people and did a great ground work. All this did leave me very exhausted but it was a satisfactory one and i was smiling on way to hotel!!I did not know a single person in this office and when I left I knew more than a dozen of related people for my work!! This was the power of confidence I was able to display and just before I stepped in this city I got to know that we have also got a small by opening oreder for the portfolio I am taking care of. Last 48 hours were absolutely hectic and very satisfactory. I have thoroughly enjoyed this experience and want to work harder to see more of it!!

Mumbai- Makes & Breaks Dreams!!!

2009-02-03T06:42:00.000-08:00

Bandra Terminal: 10 pm: waiting to board the train and sleep desperately!! I was loitering around to find a place to sit!! i found a small slot to fit my butt between stacks of luggage on a seat, and i comfortably did so. And ofcourse the rightful owner of the "slot" and lugguage turned up but let me keep the "slot". He rearranged the luggage and managed to make space for his ownself!! Out of the blue he turned towards me and just blurted out " saab koi naukri ya kaam bataeeye"!!! I was taken aback, he was smelling of cheap liquor but not drunk as such. Seeing me quite he told me his story that he was running a motor parts/mechanic shop and sum one frm his village offered him a job and askd him to come over to mumbai, now this guy borrowd some money from his elder brothr n came to mumbai without his family's consent, and his "friend" just handed his cell to sumone when this guy called who said its a wrong number!! he kept wandering in mumbai for 3 days and all he cud find was a labor's work, which he declined, when his finances dropped he decided to get a ticket back home!! he was from the place where i spent 4 yrs of my graduation and actually very near to my college!! I tried to counsel him and show him that he has taken an intelligent and corogeous decision of going back home!! i told him a lot of things to pacify his ripped soul!! The lure of money and glamour which the media reflects about mumbai attracts crores of similar cases on daily basis!!!I was feeling weak towards his state and feared if he wud ask for money, but then the train arrived and we parted ways to board the same train- i went to the ac coach with heavy heart nd he fought his way in the general coach!!I wish him better luck in life!!

Mumbai-just before sunrise

2009-02-01T01:02:00.000-08:00

It wasnt the first time, I have seen mumbai just before sunrise countless times couple of years back, but at time i used to be dead n breathing in the office cab on way home. This was a much different experience altogether!! And i had the unusal company of a much elder person who also happens to be my flat mate!!The WE highway which in general keeps running at a killing speed with more people on it than probably in my home town was devoid of a single soul, though intemittently mad cars rushed past us trying to reach a super sonic speed!! And it was so damn chilly!!Something which is actually alien even in thots in mumbai, but "brrrrrr" it was cold and we were clad in t-shirt!!! so it brot back the memories of GKP,Delhi & Dun when we used to return after hogging on kilos of food at exotic restaurants and the cold wind wud freeze my poor nose and i wud curse my belly making all sorts of noises in that cold!!Now the evident question is what was i or what were we doing out on the streets at such an odd hour!! Well my frnd is married and has a kid too, his family is away from him, and i long to have a family and both of us quite disillusioned by life were venting our frustations on each other , though i believe none heard the other person's bakwaas!! but it was gud the chilly wind and the dark highway kind of scared us and we promptly returned base to hit our beds under the sheets.

War on Terror or War between Communities

2009-01-29T21:33:00.000-08:00

This was a great debate show hosted by Barkha Dutt at Jaipur!! It was really some serious food for thought which wud force every individual to question his or her own belief in secularism/ fascism and lastly terrorism!! I wudnt say i cud make head or tails of the whole discussion, but wat i realized is dat there is so MUCH to learn and to know about our past, present and speculations of future. Now that i realize the value of knowledge when i get to just glance at e-newspapers!! ha ha ha ha!!

where did i go wrong?

2009-01-26T10:08:00.000-08:00

I shudnt have read that poem in the first place!! but the name of the author brot back memories of class XI,the english teacher and the way we 60 guys were scratching our skulls over her puzzle!! i think i know where i went wrong my expectations were much larger than life and my own devotion was meagre!!and it doesnt work that ways at all!! i am so falling in the foot steps of someone who has alwaz been my role model and already i c the devil's shadow, if I dont correct my self now den sum one else may again suffer in my family !! I try hard not to surrender to the khandani devil, but then he does get the better of me at times & thats when i make fatal faults!!!!

Na Chandni Chowk ka tadka Na China ka flavour

2009-01-24T13:05:00.000-08:00

Yup , just watched it!! This one time Akki baba was not able to pull it off!! While u watch the movie u feel that the movie has been just bundled with regular masala wid out actually carving the character keeping viewer's expectations from Akki in mind!! The plot is quite obvious and Deepika has done the movie just to exploit Akki's charm for her career benefit!! This is my own personal view. Reminds me of Kung-Fu Panda which was a lot better!! I stopped my office work and watched the movie, and now feeling hungry for a late nite snack!! So while i whip up sum toast n coffe, u guys keeping making the best of saturday nite!! BTW Happy R day,atleast i got a break after months !! Thanks a lot my dear Nation.

Suress,Ramess & Mahesss

2009-01-16T04:49:00.000-08:00

The title wudnt make sense to anyone!! Anyways last evening i took the bus home and on the bus was a simple coin phone. Andaboard the bus were 2 my kinda guys from "myland", ha ha ha ha. Both of them ofcourse were venturing in this mumbai nagri for the first time and the concept of "PCO" in a bus was like meeting an alien at a tea shop!! Till the time i got off at my stop I cudnt help enjoying their conversation, because it was my "bhasha" which i do not get to hear or speak in this city and the way theu compared this one phone in the bus to the one phone shared by 2 of their neighboring villages!! So that is still the face of our rural India and God only knows what kind of mobile penetration the "India Inc" boasts about!!

My Di, I & our childhood

2009-01-15T04:44:00.001-08:00

This incident happend a few weeks back when i was travellin in the local. A couple with a baby in mom's lap and another kid holding her dad's finger boarded the train and sat opposite to me. The baby in lap was a boy and ther other kid was a girl. The girl was sumwhat unhappy about the fact that her baby bro had usurped their mom's lap and also she was tired and needed her parent's attention. Without intentions her afectionation pats on her brother were quite harsh and ofcourse he wailed loud!! The poor mother cudnt make a decision as to whom to comfort. But pretty soon the girl's irritation vanished with the wind blowing from the window and she was all love and affection for her brother. All this time i was just observing the family's facial expressions and the glee of happiness which was prominent. I was just wondering about my and my sister's childhood, though i am pretty sure about my parent's balancing act between the us yet there must also have been moments when Di wud have felt something similar as the little girl did even if for a short while. She is the one who at present is practically holding us all together and she is the one who needs all the care n pampering in the world. She must be turning plump by the day with Myra running around all chatter-chatter. Di is one great lady whom I kind of discover in different circumstances with different roles to play. One thing i absolutely believe now that God HAS created the fairer gender superior to us!!

Early Morning excursionin the Film City of Mumbai

2009-01-02T21:46:00.000-08:00

It was a great going to the film city early morning!! nice excursion trip.

Bye bye 2008

2008-12-29T19:49:00.000-08:00

Another year behind us which left loads of blues on most of us and larger than life expectations from 2009!! All's well that ends well, just hope that the year end and year begining are safe and sound with all the part animals returning home safely!!we will be shifting on the 1st day of the new year and today a good friend shall leave us for ever!! "Ajay bhai" the guy who lived with us for more than 6 months and with who we spoke with just a month bak for the first time!! We all started admiring him for his attitude and sense of humor until his anger took the better of him and we all suffered a loss of home!! last nite he packed up to leave and it was really sad to see tears in his eyes when we spoke of the "daal fries" we ate and the dozens of beer bottles we emtied over week ends!!I wish him all the best for his marriage and life, may God help him curb his anger!! In all the later part of 2008 was good to me!! I mean if like the economic analysis i compare the 2nd half of 2007 and that of 2008,at least I feel good!! may God shower peace on all of us!!

Oops!! We did it for the first time

2008-12-28T01:17:00.000-08:00

Na na na no naughty thoughts at all!! ha ha ha ha!! last nite's brawl was more than enuf to leave us "homeless"!! but we may be saved!! the grand decision of the society will b declared today evening!! there no remorse for wat ever happedned!! But" 5C/401" has brot us all a lot of luck and specially the room which we occupy has the warmth of my friendship with Chintan !! chintan and i were actually planning to may be buy this flat from the owner!! we r emotionally attached with this apartment!! I just wish we are pardoned and we get to stay here longer!!

Revenge of Murdered love:Without memory

2008-12-27T20:48:00.001-08:00

After 6 months we got time and a good reason to go to movie!!watched ghajini with chintan and another roomie!! it was actually a fine blend of all correct ingredients for a great product!! though wat was most facinating was the hairdo of the popocorn guy!! poor guys were made to shave off their hair and were given an Amir khan's hair style!! but yaar yesterday wasnt good in all!!a nonsensical brawl wasnt sumthng i was looking fwd to last evening!! nd now i really feel bad about it!! but no use crying over spilt milk!! will have to mend what was torn!!nyways, i wish a wonderful year ahead to all may God shower us with health and safety!!

Revenge of Murdered love:Without memory

2008-12-27T20:48:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!! Teri Christmas!!

2008-12-25T00:12:00.000-08:00

Christmas sabki hai!! Last christmas i was in dumps of life!! torn apart,shattered sad and physically challenged too!!nd off we went to daman for a change of scene but in-vain!! returned with a much worse mood and ran away to b'lore in search of???????????? , returned a fornite later!! nd things changd for ever!!
ANYWAYS......... I am much better now!! Atleast nothing bad is happening around me!!

Burning Sensation in my eyes

2008-12-20T02:26:00.000-08:00

looooooooooooooong hours of excel sheets have given me a burning sensation in my eyes!! now its week end and my only solace is my laptop,dunno wat will i do this weekend!!

mumbai must be partying/sleeping/bleeding while i m enjoying

2008-11-29T10:30:00.000-08:00

do i need a reason for enjoying!! well just b'coz i dont have a reason to be sad!! i am happy n enjoying, there was a bit of good news in my professional career first time in last 2 yrs!! and bas i feel good about it, nd wanted ti pamper my self!! so i m enjoying!!

Mumbai is bleeding while I am panting

2008-11-27T07:43:00.000-08:00

Yes Mumbai nd its spirit to fight is bleeding. I have seen a dozen of havocs but the city was always up on its feel and running even b4 the news hit the newspapers nxt morning!! But today i realized the gravity of matter when i reached my office in 10 minutes in a barely occupied bus on a highway which sucks the air out of me by the time i reach offfice normally. but today was exceptional!! A very uncomfortable silence prevailed on the road nd everyone had a quention to ask "shud I or shud I not venture out"!! this kind of nervouness prevailed and frantic phone calls to repective homes were being made to ensure every ones well being!! during all this I was relaxed smiling!! no one to call to & inform about being alive and no one to ask about the same in this city atleast!!! Ashmed I am of admitting that all the gruesome blood shed did gave a half day at office, which was like a drop of chilled water in desert!! ha hah ahaha .... now days i turn in at 10pm or may b after that nd am running around whole day with loads of responsibilities not to mention dad n mom's deterioriating health n psychology!! i gobble food at nite to fall in the bed !! its a very pleasent n welcome change from wat i have been through in last one year or so. but my parents NEED me, nd like always i m not there!!

Hi to everyone

2008-11-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

just wasnted to say Hi to the world of Blogging